Magical Diary

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Though one may get to fear the sight of it, a properly kept magical record is the surest guarantor of success in the work of Liber MMM: it is both a work of reference with which to evaluate progress and most significantly, a goad to further effort. - Liber Null

I don't think Uncle Pete would approve, and this is not really my magical diary (you wouldn't want to see those mad scribblings), but you will find here a collection of various writings, rituals, prayers and recipes.

I am, at heart, a syncretist. And before you go all CMG on me for labeling myself, labels are convenient. They will never capture our true essence, but they help to distill it down so that we actually have something to talk about. Like most good wizards (Fuck you Rufus Opus), I beg borrow and steal from what works: grimoires, the PGM, Tarot, Astrology...all done, probably, with a tad too much devotionalism to suit Gordon White. That said, I find myself more aligned with what Wizard White has called "Third Wave" Chaos Magic: a chaos that that doesn't dispense with the past so much (and makes a lot less use of Superman and Cthulhu), while still keeping a rigorous eye on the bottom line: does it work.

Join me in my little part of the Re-enchanting the World project.


The Forty Servants

I've done quite a bit of work with The Forty Servants Magic and Divination System, created by Tommie Kelly. Of course, you can follow the link to find out more, but for the sake of brevity: its a collection of servitors (a chaos magic concept) printed in the form of an oracle deck that can be used both for various magical operations and divination. At one point, I called it a modern grimoire and I stand by that statement. Like most grimoires, its a framework for you to build on (go ahead, tell me any grimoire is a complete system unto itself).

You can find my Initiation of the Messenger over at Adventures in Woo Woo, where it was featured as the first in the Other Voices section.  You can find my other work on the Forty Servants here, including the Initiation of the Witch.

Gentle Hermes, most kind,
friend of man and woman,
guide to Orpheus and Eurydice
and protector of Persephone;
you come to each of us
as we begin our descent,
prithee come in comely form
to those who know Thee not.
May thy commanding staff
be a symbol of comfort
to those afraid to loose
these mortal bonds.
Hermes, Anubis,
I pray for my honored dead
but also the lost and the lonely,
for the wandering spirits
and all those who have noone to pray for them.
In your names, I pray for them.
may you be a constant and gentle guide
to all those whom you lead.

Hermes Oneiropompos, Heros Propylaios

This is for my mother in law, who I love dearly even if we rarely see eye-to-eye and have a tendency to drive each other crazy.

After nearly twenty years with my partner, she asked me yesterday: do you believe in God? It was a bad place and time for the question, and I didn't handle it well (blame the shooting pains in my shoulder and arm if you will, it'd be a nice out for me if not an honest one), starting down the road of what I don't believe instead of what I do believe.  Never a good way to begin, nor to win friends.

So, here's a distillation of what I believe.

  • I do indeed believe in God; several in fact.
  • I believe in God the unknowable, the ineffable spark of all life and creation.
  • I believe in The God and The Goddess, our Divine Parents... the first division of the ineffable spark, the dynamic opposites of Male and Female, Positive and Negative that the Universe shows us are the basic building blocks of all things.
  • I believe that the Divine has many names, wears many faces; that it exists within all things, and especially within us, Their Children.
  • I find the Divine in the World and Universe around me, and also in the deep, still spaces within.
  • I believe that the Names by which I call the Divine were revealed to me for a reason: Hermes/Thoth, Isis and Osiris, Horus.

That's just a list of things... it barely touches upon what moves me. I pray, not every day, but I pray.  Most often I pray to Holy Mother Isis, because I have felt Her wings about me in times of need and genuine despair. When She moves within me, I am a better person.

In the end, the fundamentals of what I believe are not so different, really, from that espoused by the Christian faiths. We have many things in common, and hold many of the same things in esteem. We call The Divine by different names, and outwardly worship in different ways, but we're really not that much different.

Hail to Thee, All-Father
Guardian at the Gate.
I come before Thee
armed with oak and steel.
I come bearing sweet perfumes,
Bread and wine for sacrifice.
Wisdom is yours, Sky-Father,
Strength is yours, Thunderer,
Splendor is yours, Bolt-Thrower.
We have called Thee by many names:
Odin, Indra, Zeus;
You are the All-Father:
Hunter, Protector, Lord.
I invoke Thee, All-Father,
That I might share in Thy Wisdom;
I invoke Thee, All-Father,
That I might partake of Thy Strength;
I invoke Thee, All-Father,
That I might witness Thy Splendor.
Thee, Thee, I invoke, All-Father;
I am Become Thee.

  • self
  • not self
  • love
  • union
  • annihilation